I Got my Referral

Today was my doctors apt to obtain my medical interview and referral for the surgeon! I went in and met with the doctor- they weighed me and stated that my weight was 134.0 which means I officially lost 11 pounds since my initial appointment with the doctor. He asked me some medical questions and reviewed my test results to conclude I am one healthy person. he was happy to know I dont smoke and have been making efforts to decrease my caffeine and advil usage.He said because I am so healthy that my chances of death due to surgery is the smallest of the small percent, which I guess is great news! Phew...
he said it will be about 3 weeks till I hear from the surgeon, they will call me to schedule my apt with them, once I see the surgeon they will discuss my Gastric options and make a final decision on which one I prefer, and then comes scheduling the apt!!!

Sooo happy this AM!!!

Mind Over Matter

I have really been trying to use my BRAIN.. and really think about when I actually eat because I am hungry and eat just because it looks YUMMY!! I have been doing well all week in really being mindful of this, however TODAY, was the first day that I ate because it was YUMMY and not because I was hungry. I am really disappointed in myself but I know that tomorrow is another day, heck the rest of the day is still enough time to change. There has been so much food at my work today that my mind is just going crazy, I am working so hard to prove to myself that I am not a food addict but I feel the more I concentrate on that the more I realize that I am actually addicted!
I will continue to focus on only eating when I am hungry, and not when the food looks Yummy!!! Its my goal and i know it will take some time to retrain my brain for this, but I can do it and I will NOT give up!!!

The STAIRS!

So today we have a fire drill at work! and we were required to walk down 5 flights of stairs.. so I decided to walk back up the stairs, and boy was I concerned when i did that! i was breathing so hard, and my heart was pounding out of my chest, I was dizzy, and light headed. I swear I felt FAT!!! it was the worst feeling ever!!! and officially the first real time I felt obese!!! I cant belive I felt that way but it was a wake up call for me to get out there and start to excercise, even if it is just something small. I joined our work "Biggest Loser" competition, and it will begin next week, I am really hoping along with the help of my coworkers that I am successfull in losing more weight before my medical interivew on 1/30/12.
Also as a side note I called today to see if I can change my Medical Interview apt to a sooner date. and BOOOOO they didnt have any other openings.. I am beyong anxious right now and just want to know if I am approved or not!!! and where I will get my surgery, and when!!!! So much to think about!!!

Final Class

I am so happy to say that Friday Jan 6th was my LAST class for the options program through Kaiser! Totally excited that I am done with the 1st phase of this program, Now I am just keeping my fingers crossed that when I go to my Medical Interview with the doctor on Jan 30th he will approve me to get my referral to the surgeon! Man I am on pins and needles hoping he does! but only the man above can say what my path should be and if I am ment to proceed with this process...  For now I will just keep cautious about what food I eat and hope that i continue to get healthier..